Wednesday, April 08, 2009

gaining strength from the past... looking forward for a bright future!

looking back at my third year in college required a lot of guts from me. why? because, i cannot accept a lot of things that happened this year especially when it comes to my grades... but looking deeper into this very unique experience, i found that i gained more in another aspect of my life- which awakened me to the real dimension of existence.

as i reread my previous blog entries, i could not help but say that yes "those were the happy and sweet moments of my college life" simply because i get to have good grades, i could cope with stress and i heave this heart of thanksgiving at all times. feel thankful for having read those entries once more. i just realized that indeed i am blessed by the Lord in these years of my life. and for that i am very thankful to God... :)

if i look back into my third year in college...

February 2008
-i won in the elections. i am the new Samahan Treasurer!
- bigger responsibilities... more pressure. hmp!

April 2008-May 2008
-i was busy tutoring Amie Lou Cisneros with public speaking and english language proficiency. i earned a lot, but hey, i lost the time- the private times (which are supposedly used for pesonal rest, review and etc.) in exchange of the earnings that i had. nevertheless, it was beneficial to me. i gained a new friend and in a way, i refined my english speaking skills.

May 2008
-ASEP! Maragusan baby! grabe. i love the experience of being one with nature. and to experience the life in the country side. honestly, it was fun living with the people in Brgy Tupas in Maragusan. they were all nice and very warm/. i love gulay! and the water falls made me worship God for His greatness :). Len Len, Audrey, Shin Shin, Ate Mae, Kuya Agner, Nanay Naty and Tatay Sising... Memorize ko pa!! :) miss oyu all :)
- the love affair started here... hmmm. well, it was a learning experience though :)
-AFYOP! walang kapaguran. so blessed to have X1, Y2 and 1A as my class. matatalino silang lahat and they all have the life to participate and be oriented well in the AFYOP! i love you all guys. and i love the work too... :)

June 2008
-Pasukan na. nagkaroon ba ako ng bakasyon? hmmm. tanong na ang sagot ay hindi. hindi ako nakapagbakasyon dahil sa napakabusy kong buhay :) hahahaha

July 2008
-SAMAHAN rush. preparations for fiesta, prelim exams

August 2008
-prelim exams, fiesta. stress... but fun. we had a special part during the cheerdance competition. i was a torch bearer then. hahaha. nice one...
-during the Gawad awards night, i was awarded as the most outstanding sophomore and the highest WPA awardee. Praise God for these awards... Education should be done for the Greater Glory of God! it was ahumbling and at the same time a super blessed experience... :)

September 2008
-Midterms? Gosh!
-Birthday :). i am already 19! :) more mature and more prepared with life... :)

October 2008
-ASLA7. it is one of the most memorable experiences that i ever had this year. well. i learned a lot from the self, to others to the nation, to God. ASLA was a defining moment and really, it moved me to do things which i could not imagine. my standard went high, but a change in my character and personality set in... when the passion and the high somehow normalized and equilibriated, i realized that i have changed... in some ways for the worst... too bad... the manila journey was refreshing, antipolo was great, fresh air... and manila is a shopping haven,,, :)

November 2008
-super stressed. prelims are up... budget crunch. we dont have a moderator in samahan... so ako pa talaga ang gumawa ng paraan. sobra! hahahah :((

December 2008
-EXAMS!!! so little time to study!

January 2009
- grades confronted me- they are not that high... below my expectations and aim... too bad... nevertheless, i remained hopeful for midterms...
-ELECTIONS, planning period... pressure...
-too much extra curricular, too much academics, too much work, too little time...

February 2009
- campaign... stress, friendship, pressure
- Elections, i lost. mixed emotions...
- midterms... time to study... meron pa ba?
- low low low grades... :(

March 2009
- finals!
- you are fired- maam tan :(
- expectations are rising, performance is getting low... so sad. i've never been this mediocre before :(

April 2009
-fixing things
-rest
- what went wrong?
- what ought to be done?

actually, my third year was more of an adventure... i actually forgot that i am a college student aiming to graduate with honors. a student who forgot that he is a chem major- a course which requires a lot of hardwork, attention, concentration and focus! well, i thank the Lord for this wake- up call... and as the book 7 habits of highly effective teens would say it- BE PROACTIVE! i am the force and i can change the course of my life for the better. i know that things will be better for as long as i prioritize the important things in my life... although my third year was a perfect imbalance, but i should say that i learned a lot from it. it was a learning experience and it is something worthy to be treasured. i learned to work under pressure and stress. to stretch it beyond the limits up to the point of exhaustion, depression and defeat... but in this instance, i learned to grow as a person and recognize my limits and know how to manage myself

above all the experience made me closet to my God... well, i appreciated His plans more and more each day... and i realize that it is just i who is so impulsive and hardheaded in this life... so i'd better listen to Him and allow Him to direct my life... :)


:)

Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam!

Michael Casas

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